Long time no blog. Discipline is
not exactly one of my core strengths has been established long time back. But
then writing is not something that comes to me every day. Its triggered only
when something happens and the weight of that something is so big, that I feel
the need to pen(t) it out.
So, what is it that’s hit me so
bad that I feel the urge to write today? It’s the subtle realization that there
is no bigger crime in the world than theft. Every other crime is related to it.
When you lie, you steal a person’s right to the truth. When you cheat on
someone, you steal a person’s right to honesty. When you kill someone, you
obviously steal a life. When you try to manipulate someone’s feelings, you
steal their peace of mind. It all boils down to theft. Yes I know…this is no
original thought. I picked it up from “The Kite Runner”. But I just realized,
the guy is right. The thought is so deep and of late I've been feeling a very
deep connection to it.
The problem is…..someone has been
stealing from me since a very long time. And now, I’m not liking it one bit. As
a matter of fact, what started as minor irritation has turned into a major
strong dislike for this certain someone. Ignorance they say is the best way to
hurt someone without doing anything violent/ harmful/ malicious; but here’s the
deal….this certain someone is so self-obsessed, it views being ignored as a
sign of me having laid my weapons down in some form of surrender. What an
idiot!
OK. Here are some questions I
want you to think about before I spew the venom inside me.
1. How
do you feel about people who cite religious scriptures for the silliest of
things and then do things which would perhaps bruise even the conscience of
someone as stone-hearted as Hitler?
2. How
do you feel about people who think the whole world has nothing better to do but
hatch conspiracies against them?
3. How
do you feel about people who condemn all things declared taboo by society, but
secretly either wish they could do each one of them or actually go and do them?
4. How
do you feel about people who have a “chori…upar se seena jori” attitude. For
the Hindi illiterate, literally translated it means someone who steals
something and knows they've done something wrong and yet when someone questions
him/ her, vindicates himself/herself with a lot of aggression.
5. Lastly
how do you feel about people who think that all the problems in the world,
right from princess Diana's death to Manmohan Singh’s irritating silence is
somehow related to them and is reason enough for them to crib about how
miserable their lives are?
I don’t know about you, but there
is only one emotion I feel about such a person. Very strong pity. This person
needs to slow down. Probably get a shot of self-respect from the closest
vaccination center and needs to undergo a major conscience transplant surgery
as soon as possible. Her/his condition is way too critical. And though this is
not a contagious disease, it is one which could suck out all the positive
energy from anything or anyone who comes in contact with the patient. Of late, I've had the displeasure of being at a very disturbing and harmful proximity to
one such patient, and the always cheerful, bubbly Arnimaal has been reduced to
a venom spewing b***h from hell J
Someone told me, why do you let
this person impact you to this extent that even the sight of him/ her makes
your blood boil? Why do you expect from people? Well, here’s the answer. I generally
don’t bother keeping expectations from people because I know how pathetic I
myself am when it comes to living up to someone’s expectations if it doesn't suit me. However, I don’t create any illusions about my inability to live up to
unreasonable expectations. I’m generally very clear in communicating my
limitations and setting the right expectations. Being the naive idealist that I
am, I expect the same from others, especially if they claim to be my “close and
true” friends. When that doesn't happen, I snap! Simple.
But a person who says one thing
and then goes and does something that’s completely contradictory to what they
claim, I do get disappointed which leads to me getting angry and eventually
distancing myself from the source of disappointment completely. I don’t think I’m
too wrong in feeling disappointed. It’s healthy to have expectations from a
person, especially the ones which are set by the person himself/herself.
If you can’t live up to the
expectations that you yourself systematically set up in someone else’s mind,
then as I said before, go get a self-respect vaccine and a conscience
replacement surgery done as soon as possible. I know the certain someone I am
writing about will never read this piece because he/she doesn't have the medium
to access my blog, but I wish as hell that his/ her “well-wishers” share this
with him/her. It would save me the displeasure of speaking to him/ her and
would maybe even give him/ her the clarity that I ignore/ avoid him/her not
because I've surrendered my weapons or something like that…..but that I think
it is beneath me to even bother looking at such a person.
May “Allah” bestow some sense
upon this one for the sake of all those who have to deal with him/ her on a
daily and more permanent basis!
